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Clara Penya
24 October 2009 @ 10:36 am
I'd like to change my LJ username. Not sure yet, but I've been thinking of a new one for some time, my current one is plain boring!
I don't what I want it to be like, but can anyone give me some ideas? It can have my name in it, but it doesn't have to.
I just want a new and interesting username.
Ideas?
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Clara Penya
23 October 2009 @ 06:35 pm

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Current Music: Mary by Noah and The Whale
 
 
Clara Penya
22 October 2009 @ 07:16 pm
I want to say a huge thanks to all of you that have read and commented on my last entry :)
That means alot to me!
I'm feeling alot better in the last few days!
And I got really happy because of one thing... Franz Ferdinand will be in my city on the 21st of march and I'm almost sure I will go to their concert :D
 
 
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: Van Tango by Franz Ferdinand
 
 
Clara Penya
18 October 2009 @ 10:34 pm
IDK why but things just don't seem right to me right now.
I've been so moody! At this morning I was all happy, cheerful and excited, now I'm just depressed and wishing I could disappear.
There are only 2 people that really listen to what I have to say and try to give me advice. Not relatives. Two friends, true ones. But they don't even know about my eating disorder... I just can't tell them. Will I ever find someone that really cares about me? It feels as if I was completely worthless.
I feel worthless.
I wish there was someone who could really talk to me. Please, leave me a comment or anything. IDC if we hardly ever talk, I just need a friend. I need to feel alive.
 
 
Current Mood: moody
Current Music: Courage by Superchick
 
 
Clara Penya
09 October 2009 @ 11:19 pm
It's been official for some months now. But I hadn't told you, so now I'm gonna say it: I have eating disorders.
In the past few months, I didn't get rid of those unhealthy diet habits and that stuff, also didn't stop purging. So everything got much worse. I dropped to 40 kilograms(90 pounds) at 162cm(that's between 5'3'' and 5'4''), with a BMI of 15,6. Then everyone obviously noticed something was very wrong with me. I got into recovery, and got out of it when I was at a healthy weight again, around 50 kilograms(110 pounds), but I obviously thought I was too fat, so two weeks after that I started eating less and less and purging again :(
I've already lost 4 kilograms of all the weight I gained during recovery. I currently have a BMI of 17,5. That's already underweight. I can't go a week without purging excessively... it's sad. IDK why this doesn't stop. Everyday I eat the way I'm supposed to, I feel depressed and throw up. Two weeks ago I did it 13 times in only one day. But the worst of it is: I can vomit everything but my pain.
It doesn't matter how much I throw up or don't eat, the pain is always there.
People don't understand me. They have no idea about how I feel. There are days that I am actually happy and forget about all this... but then I look at the mirror and feel weak... It feels like I'm going to die. I feel completely lost and alone and worthless.
 
 
Current Mood: pessimistic
Current Music: 18th Floor Balcony by Blue October
 
 
Clara Penya
04 October 2009 @ 08:49 am
OMG, can't believe I've been THAT long without uptading this!...
Sorry guys! My computer had a problem(many actually!) and had to be fixed and I spend a long period without it! I missed you all! I hope at least someone will remember who I am, LOL.
COMMENT IF YOU STILL REMEMBER ME AND WANT TO KEEP IN MY FRIENDS LIST TO CONTINUE READING MY ENTRIES!
 
 
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Clara Penya
19 July 2009 @ 11:49 am
Hi there... it's been a while since the last time I posted something here! I really wanted to have posted sooner but I was traveling(dad's hometown, a tiny place in the middle of nowhere, LOL). But here I am!
Every sunday I'll post "Fashion ideas in colour", a post which will contain pieces of clothes, accessories and that stuff in only one colour. Today I chose blue. I've noticed that blue is a colour which I wear alot, although it's not intentionally.
IDK why but lots of people I know find blue a boring colour. There are actually some shades of blue that I don't find that interesting, such as navy blue. But other shades amaze me, such as turquoise.
Blue is a calm and pretty colour. You might say "I hate blue", but who doesn't have a blue piece of clothing? No one. Even if you hate this colour, you must love that old blue jeans of yours!

Delicated romantic blouse.
My style is quite romantic, so I love this kind of blouse! Unfortunately IDK where it is from...
here is a photo of me wearing it:


I don't usually wear skirts. Actually, I wear them hardly ever. But there is one of mine that I love so much, and guess its colour? Blue, obviously.

It's from Zara.


Blue accessories. The little backpack is very sporty and cute, I bought it at a street market actually. You can find similar ones in many shops and of course street markets!

Blue Avon eyeshadows! 

Blouse, Jacket(M. officer), Shirt(Zara), Blue Jeans(Evidence), Sleeveless shirt.
xxxxx
Clara
 


 
 
Current Mood: missing someone!
Current Music: Thinking of you - Katy Perry
 
 

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Clara Penya
27 June 2009 @ 09:48 am



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Clara Penya
13 June 2009 @ 01:37 pm
Hi... you must think I've simply forgotten my LJ, but in fact I haven't. It's just that I don't feel like posting, you see...
But everything is okay! My grades are excellent, friendships are going well, and I'm dealing really well with that weight issue I told you about. Eventually that stupid and unecessary issue is going away.
I've been posting alot on my flickr photostream, my photography is improving! I'd love if you could see some of my photos at www.flickr.com/brunettebarbie :)
xxxx
Clara


 
 
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Clara Penya
31 May 2009 @ 08:43 am
time is flying. too fast. it's running out.
 
 
Clara Penya
22 May 2009 @ 07:34 pm





 
 
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Clara Penya
21 May 2009 @ 07:54 pm
thw weather is SO GOOD.
in the last few weeks, from 6:30 pm to around 10 am it's about 14ºC-17ºC here. at the hottest times of the day, 24ºC at maximum.
But it's nt cloudy or depressing. There is sunshine. Gorgeous sunshine.
And that autumnal wind!
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Clara Penya
19 May 2009 @ 08:57 pm
MY WARDROBE IS TIDY :D


btw, now i've got an e-mail adress only for people that don't know me in person, if anyone wants to talk privately with me...
it's clarapenya@yahoo.com
If you'd like to ask me anything, or simply talk, e-mail me!

 
 
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Falling in Love - Falling Up
 
 
Clara Penya
16 May 2009 @ 03:11 pm
Yesterday the weather was great. I was pretty bored until the idea of taking photos with a theme came up to my mind!
But I wasn't sure about which theme. I could start a photography project... maybe about feelings? seasons? fictional characters? countries? I didn't choose any of those. I chose doing a set inspired by Twilight saga - books, Twilight film, photoshoot/stills from the film and its soundtrack.
At first it sounded a bit crazy and difficult to me, but I really wanted to try, I had never done a photography project/themed-set before!
So I put black clothes on, did a dark makeup, took my camera to a walk in my neighbourhood, and took some photos. I'll show you them then tell you what inspired me to shoot some of them!(large view on my flickr photostream: www.flickr.com/brunettebarbie)


when I took these two above, the lighting was just perfect, it was the exact moment of taking photos inspired by the ones from the Vanity Fair photoshoot featuring the cast of Twilight:


The song Decode, by Paramore, inspired me to shoot this one:


The song Eyes on Fire inspired me to shoot these:



The other ones(what inspired to shoot them was not a really specific thing, it was like everything related to the Twilight saga):




I'm pretty satisfied with this set I've done... It was my first themed one.
Please tell me what you think about them, because I want to know what's good/bad about my first themed photography set, want to get some advice on what should I practice, and some suggestions for a photography project or themed set.
I think I'll post a make-up tutorial about the make-up look of that set, I really liked it!



 
 
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Clara Penya
10 May 2009 @ 06:58 pm
My math special/advanced class was on friday. Just a few of my classmates were invited to join it, guess who was there...
The friend of mine I'm love with! I'll refer to him here as... J. Won't be tell his real name for now.
I knew he was going to be there, but in the past 3 weeks I've been noticing something... it seems like he feels something for me... not only friendship, you know?
I get anxious and bored when I'm not around him. Tomorrow I'll see him again! Perhaps that's why I've been so happy; because I'm in love, and it seems like he loves me as well! Oh, l'amour!
But ok, back to the class. It was SO great! My math teacher is not a regular or traditional one, he's hilarious and really nice. That's awesome, because I love math.
My best friend has been "suspecting" about J and I, she keeps telling me that he and I have been talking alot, that he acts a bit shy with me and always wants to be around me. I've never told a word about what a feel for J to my best friend, but she is so sure I love him. Hah, love can't be ignored. She also says that J and I would be a perfect couple, because we have got so many things in common...
 
 
Current Mood: relieved
Current Music: Magic Position - Patrick Wolf
 
 
Clara Penya
08 May 2009 @ 09:24 pm
Hey! I decided I will NOT quit. My LOVELY lj friends gave me some really good suggetions about the things I could post about. I love all my lj readers :) You're all amazing!
Some of my friends list told me it would be really nice if I posted about makeup, and I've seen it before: whenever anyone posts about it, the one who posts always gets lost of comments, because most of lj users are girls, and all girls love to read about makeup!
So, I'll show you and talk about the make-up looks I like to do!
First look:

This is a look a really find lovely, specially for brown-eyed girls. Also must look lovely with other eye colours.
Well, I won't talk about the foundation, because everyone wears a different one and this isn't "special" in this look.
1)apply a a bit of beige eyeshadow on your entire eyelids.
2)apply 2 different shades warm dark brown eyeshadow on your browbone and outer eyelid, then blend it.
3)apply a white eyeshadow on your lower eyelid.
4)blend it a little - if necessary - again.
5)apply black(if you have dark hair) or dark brown(if you have lighter haircolour) mascara.
6)put on a warm brownish lipgloss.
7)for the blush, I'd recommend a natural-looking colour. If you have pale cool skintone, a bit of a soft pink one. If your skintone is similar to mine, warm and pale-ish, a peachy-coloured blush. If you have olive or very tanned skin, a bit of a brownish blush or bronzer. For very dark skin, a brown one. But the blush is optional, I guess. For this photo, I was wearing a peachy one, but It's important to remember that is not the essential on this look.
Products I recommend for this look:
- For lips, Avon Glazewear Liquid Lip Color, in shade Brown Sugar.
- For your entire eyelids, MAC eye shadow, in shade Bamboo.
- For the browbone and outer lid, Covergirl Queen Collection 1-kit eye shadow, shades Copper Penny; and Fire It Up.
- L'Oréal Paris Telescopic Clean Definition mascara
- For cheeks, L'Oréal Paris True Mtch Blush, shade Bare Honey W1-2



This a very simple, natural, still sweet make-up. The eye make-up is very little, the cheeks are just a bit rosy and the lips are coral-coloured.
1)apply some white or beige eyeshadow(if your skintone is warm, choose the beige one. if it's cool, the white will look perfect). on your outer lid and lower eyelid, then blend it.
2)apply some black or brown mascara, but not too much.
3)put on a shimmery light coral lipstick, like Dior Addict High Shine in shade Orange Ovation.
4)find a rosy powder blush that suits your skintone, apply it all over your cheekbones. I used Dior Glowing Colour, shade Pinky Beige.
For today, only 2 looks.
xxxxx
Clara

 
 
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Fell Down The Stairs - Tilly and the Wall
 
 
Clara Penya
07 May 2009 @ 06:06 pm
Thinking about quitting LJ. Probably not just because I don't have much time to post here, but also because everything has been too good to describe, too good to worry about posting here.
Well, time is NOT a probleme. It might be a little difficult to post because of my little free time for internet, but I can manage it.
LJ is awesome, but I CAN'T "live" in it. It's kind of a diary. But I've never really enjoyed wrinting those things. Sounds a bit controversial, I know.
I really like when people comment my entries. I'm only thinking about quitting. Comment if you want me to stay in LJ, also give some advice about other things that aren't about my personal life that would be interesting to post about!
 
 
Current Mood: jubilant
Current Music: Butterfly - Jason Mraz
 
 
Clara Penya
05 May 2009 @ 05:41 pm






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Current Music: Blackened Blue Eyes - The Charlatans UK
 
 
Clara Penya
The view of the sky my city has got is so beautiful!
3 hours ago, it looked exactly like this:

That's how it usually looks earlier:

I LOVE autumn! The weather is getting cooler and the nigths are getting longer. All I wanted :)
By the way, today I got the result of a math test I had last week... I got 100(A+)! Yay!
I've been listening to love songs since 8pm. Hah my favourite ones are the ones which are more to the dark side, like "I caught myself" by Paramore - IDK if that's really a love song, but whatever. The Fray also has got amazing songs to listen all afternoon. Too bad I don't have much time...
Bye-bye!

 
 
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Look after you - the fray
 
 
Clara Penya
02 May 2009 @ 09:37 am
Photoshop isn't working very well here! And I'd love to have some new LJ icons...
Then since I'm posting some photos from my cousin's b-day, I wish some of you choose a photo - any - and made a cute icon with it. Post the icon in a comment if you do it, please.




If you'd like to see more photos of me that you can use to make the icon, go to my flickr photostream:
www.flickr.com/brunettebarbie

 
 
Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: fickle cycle - animal collective